Friday the 20th August
I had a phone message given to me today in work saying that my husband had phoned and was in the local hospital after a visit to the doctor`s .
He had lost the vision in his left eye and was just having it checked but it was to be the biggest shock in our lives he was sent to the hospital where they told him he was now blind in one eye and they couldn`t operate or do anything for him .
He has a heart condtion and it`s connected with that and his age .
His thoughts straight away were what if i were to lose the sight in the other eye .
I was ready for what would come next but it still upset me to hear it ,he said" if i had to go blind or deaf i would rather be deaf ,if i go blind i might as well jump off a cliff,i couldn`t bear it "
He wakes up every morning now wondering if he will be able to see when he opens his eyes .
Ironic ,fate ,call it what you may i have spent the last two years helping ,supporting people on the internet who have RP (Retinitis pigmentosa) an eye disease that results in blindness and have an unofficial degree in this disease and i am well equipped for what he needs if the latter should ever happen but like i said to him ,you have to live for today ,tomorrow is another day and always stay positive :)
I told him if i was to sit down and think what if my tumour grows i would be very depressed so i keep busy and don`t have time to think about me .
He has taken that option and is back at work busy and hopefully will focus on not thinking about the if`s and but`s but live for today and enjoy it !!
Next month i will be climbing the 3 highest mountains in the UK for people who are blind/deaf for the charity Sense .
I had a phone message given to me today in work saying that my husband had phoned and was in the local hospital after a visit to the doctor`s .
He had lost the vision in his left eye and was just having it checked but it was to be the biggest shock in our lives he was sent to the hospital where they told him he was now blind in one eye and they couldn`t operate or do anything for him .
He has a heart condtion and it`s connected with that and his age .
His thoughts straight away were what if i were to lose the sight in the other eye .
I was ready for what would come next but it still upset me to hear it ,he said" if i had to go blind or deaf i would rather be deaf ,if i go blind i might as well jump off a cliff,i couldn`t bear it "
He wakes up every morning now wondering if he will be able to see when he opens his eyes .
Ironic ,fate ,call it what you may i have spent the last two years helping ,supporting people on the internet who have RP (Retinitis pigmentosa) an eye disease that results in blindness and have an unofficial degree in this disease and i am well equipped for what he needs if the latter should ever happen but like i said to him ,you have to live for today ,tomorrow is another day and always stay positive :)
I told him if i was to sit down and think what if my tumour grows i would be very depressed so i keep busy and don`t have time to think about me .
He has taken that option and is back at work busy and hopefully will focus on not thinking about the if`s and but`s but live for today and enjoy it !!
Next month i will be climbing the 3 highest mountains in the UK for people who are blind/deaf for the charity Sense .
I thought i had better throw in a couple of pics of the family ,my two sons and the husband of course :)
Oh Jackie, what a terrible shock for your poor husband.
ReplyDeleteTo be told nothing can be done so suddenly like that must have really affected his confidence and I can totally understand what he means when he now worries about the other eye.
I do wish him well and hopefully he will adjust and cope very well.
Lovely picture of the family
Carole x (aka Dizzie from CRUK forum)
Thanks for caring Dizzie ,thankyou for your message XXXXXXXX
ReplyDeleteThankyou Carole ,yest it has knocked his confidence .Ironic too ,i have spent over two years supporting people with a rare eye disease that results in blindness .
ReplyDeleteI tell him he is lucky to have sight and i know alot of people who have Ushers Syndrome which is deaf/blindness so we are really very lucky !
Love and hugs all XX